Monthly Archives: December 2017

Steady

We focus on this one bad ‘possible’ thing. As we sit and think, analyze and dwell on possibilities of bad, we completely ignore or forget about the good. We get ourselves worked up over absolutely nothing and become sad, angry … Continue reading

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Bittersweet

I look at her dancing and twirling around and I think about how much I love her. I adore how she always smiles at me when she’s doing something cute. She just knows that mommy is focused on her. I … Continue reading

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Dear LMN

The girl is nuts! She’s very obsessive and violent. She acts as if she doesn’t have common sense. What’s wrong with her? Why is she attempting to kill that guy? Why is she so clingy and needy? Is she talking … Continue reading

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Associate or Friend?

So…I’ve always wondered, “what is a friend?” How is a friend supposed to act? How do they interact with each other? How much time do they spend together? What’s considered TMI? I’ve always wondered because I grew up without any … Continue reading

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Relevancy Or Sympathy

Sometimes I think to myself, nobody cares about your sad story. I ponder over the idea of people thinking that I’m looking for sympathy, versus providing my story to others for comfort and healing. The thing is I’m NOT looking … Continue reading

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Looking For Me

I said I wasn’t going to do it. I just knew that I could keep it together. I thought to myself, “I snap back right after I have them.” I look like i’m about 17 years old, I’ll always have that … Continue reading

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Stepparent Confusion

I don’t have to listen to you! You can not tell me what to do! I don’t like you! I wish you weren’t here! You are not the boss of me! I’m telling my mom/dad! These are some of the … Continue reading

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White & Black

The looks are obvious. I can read behind a facial expression. The looks of disgust are never ending. It’s like fighting a silent war. I don’t really look too deep into their faces because I know that my facial expressions … Continue reading

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Fulltime Mommy Zone

I remember thinking to myself, why do women that stay at home with their kids act like they’re really doing something? I was so jealous of them. I wished I could stay at home and watch t.v. all day, talk … Continue reading

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Be Still

I’ve never had to be around or deal with anything or anyone for too long. As a ward of the state, I moved whenever conflict would arise. I was like a disposable toy. I was used when I was easy … Continue reading

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