We focus on this one bad ‘possible’ thing. As we sit and think, analyze and dwell on possibilities of bad, we completely ignore or forget about the good. We get ourselves worked up over absolutely nothing and become sad, angry or depressed over these thoughts of what ‘we don’t know.’ Welcome to the overwhelming emotion, ANXIETY!

How do you know, if it hasn’t or isn’t going to happen? An anxious minds just expects and suspects the outcome to be whatever their mind tells them. You try your hardest to focus on other things and eliminate that one thing out of your mind, but it always creeps right back up in the ‘between thoughts.’ No matter what, you are steadily thinking on these assumed to be bad future happenings.

I have struggled with anxiety since my teen years. I come from a background of true traumas that were always associated with an end result of what I would consider a good day or time. I always lived in fear with the environment I was subjected to. Whenever I called myself being satisfied or happy, it would be in vain because it was short lived. I eventually found myself just planning on and for the bad to avoid the disappointment or completely avoiding a next step so that I wouldn’t assume an outcome, beforehand.

Anxiety has taught me that you miss out on PLENTY when your focused on everything but the end goal and how to get it met. I’ve lived a turtle life; stuck inside my shell calling myself protecting me, from the unknown. Problem with my hiding for the last 10 years, is that I possibly missed out on great and astounding opportunities. I held myself back from things that could have took me further. I definitely regret my self doubt aka ANXIETY!

Mind over matter. What matters vs the mind. It’s a non win situation. You don’t want to let fear; THE REAL EQUATION OF ANXIETY, disrupt your possible success or progress. I have recently within the last year; been combating against my wish washy, fearful mind. I have forced myself to go ahead; do it, move forward, stop thinking on the what ifs and concentrate on the possibilities of wonderful opportunities and successes.

With this new attitude, I have adapted a new sense of self confidence that I have never experienced. I literally feel like I can conquer the world and anything that comes with being in it. Like Mcauly Caulkin in “Home Alone” “I’m not afraid anymore.” It feels so good to not fear the great potential I have to become somebody or do some-thing! I know my purpose and the anxiety held me back for a short time.

However, that mental setback could have been to build my strength up over time. When you know that you’ve had something great within you, and you finally get to experience it, it’s like a rush of adrenaline that you don’t want to slow down; pushing you do what you never thought you could do or become what you never thought you could be!

For those that are struggling with constant anxiety and fear; I urge you to write down your dream, wants, goals, plans, ambitions and create a timeline of what, when, how or why in regards to seeing those things become a reality vs a thought!


About wisdomissophia

I am married mother of 5 beautiful children. I am a writer, blogger, creator and focused individual. I have been through quite a bit in my 34 years of living and I am not ashamed of or afraid to tell my story. My writing is a way of telling my truths and helping others at the same time. We all have a story to tell and if our story will encourage, uplift, change or transforms someone's life, we ALL need to tell our story. Our life and everything that is entails, is our story.
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